For a long time I have felt as though there is a dark veil hiding me from the world: a darkness so strong no man can tear it apart. While I'm trapped behind this veil, someone else has taken control of my life. She may look like me and speak with the same voice, but her words are harsh, cold and unfeeling. She brings pain to those I love; she brings pain to me.
You can look into my eyes and see this dark hold, covering the life you can see within. In vain I fight...
Slowly the veil fades and I return again. Yet I'm not completely the same. Guilt fills me, guilt for what someone else has done. But like the scars on my arms that haunt me, I cannot erase the past. And so I must cope with the memories. Still I cope.
One day will come when I can move past all this. One day. Until then I will cling to hope after hope after... still hoping for something more than this. Something more than just living to live, just surviving to make it to the next day.
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